Your feet nearly touch the thin line, waiting, then pushing a toe tentatively nearer; you sigh wistfully, pull back gently. What delight may be held, should you ultimately cross over? Would it be to your peril or your salvation? There are risks and there are rewards to that line. You know you can’t straddle it. […]
Keep your mouth shut, little bitch. Ain’t nothing you got to say that means nothing important. Get on your knees and scrub the floors clean, clean, ever clean. Every crack and crevice, nook and cranny need special attention. Your sharp eye and a toothbrush ought to do the trick. Today. Silence surrounds. Schk-Schk-Schk. But even […]
And I’m searching for that calm space in my mind, as his hand is around my throat and he’s biting my shoulder and I can’t move and he’s fucking me, telling me it’s love and he’s the only one who truly loves me but I can’t move and my safe-word meant nothing and he tells […]
It dawned on me today that I am a writer. I have always ALWAYS viewed myself as an artist. Since I was a little kid able to actually think of myself as ‘something’, I’ve been an artist. One who is never quite happy with her art because the OCD surfaces: lines got to be formed […]
I’m tired. Tired of myself. Tired of my mind. Tired of the constant swirl of voices. I’m tired of being told my way of thinking is wrong. You think I don’t know?? Oh, I know. Believe me. I spend my hours thinking, thinking, thinking. I’m remembering, tallying up all the things he said and did. […]
Is naïveté my middle name? Did I make a fool of myself? Am I telling myself sweet lies to candy-coat reality? What’s really important? Is it me? I think not. All the old habits come back to haunt me. I beg and plead but still they come back to me. I am rotting flesh and […]
there was curled up in my belly something crouching, waiting I felt sick and nervous it dug its claws in a little deeper my heart leapt tried to work it’s way from my throat I swallowed thickly and probed my flesh there right there my suspicions confirmed I dropped to my knees fell forward and […]
Nights long past when I lay there in his arms, my soul felt complete and whole. And then he went away and I lay here alone, my heart having gone with him, I am but incomplete. Lacking. Tears soak my cheeks. My pillow. I cover my face. Shame fills me for letting him in. For […]
I said I don’t care if you don’t read my words But I lied I said I don’t mind if you don’t listen to me speak But I lied I said I don’t mind if you don’t hold me tonight But I lied I said I don’t need you for the rest of my life […]
nothing was as it seemed truth escaped without saying goodbye abandoned to the darker reality I am without hope or peace I am alone very alone my sun lays quietly behind stone clouds my moon chases another lover and has set in the south the four winds have settled in the hollow the earth speaks […]
