1,000 Grit

The rain is pouring down and it seems to etch deep within my soul – trickles and torrents washing out the sand and soft mud of life leaving behind only the hard bedrock of my internal reality. Will my heart ever be made whole again? Will my love be returned in kind? Will healing come […]

Expiration Date

we all have expiration dates he knew that because that’s what everyone always told him they said that when his dad died at 51 they said that when his mom got sick they said that when frank at the office fell off his chair during the quarterly meeting and died right there they said that […]

The Consequences of Being Emotional

the blackening, a holding back a build-up to future betrayals lines covering over whispers of a heart the twisting of realities the lighting of one lamp while calling it by another name the shift of dirt-caked fingers first here then there the pulling of an ear and wringing of hands the smirk while watching a […]

Beautiful Dream

Laying here thinking about you Open my eyes There you are before me Is this a dream? I never want to wake up Your eyes look straight into mine Brown in brown, earthy, perfect A slight smile Is that love I see reflected back? Your hand reaches out Pushes a lock of hair from my […]

Possessed

Violence Darkness Hard tug to the right Voices Whisper Head down on the ground Committed Controlled Say just what to say Power Ruthless All came with a price Favor Discord Push out all in mind Muttering Mumbling Trace shapes in the sand Obedience Subservience Tear out all my flesh Scared Crier Weak beyond all doubt […]

Dark Embrace

I can feel them, the icy cold hands, my inner demons. They’ve taken a hold and are pulling me down. I don’t think I can fight them this time. I’m not strong enough. Not only am I not strong enough but the old doubts have risen with them as well. What’s the point? What’s it […]

Draining the Barrel

drained the whole barrel not a drop spilled, every letter etched into my heart, the lines already fading filled to overflowing I release myself fully my thoughts to tears, tears to ink heart splashed along the page myself became the missing link, poured all inside emotions growing the scratching quill, it kept me going left […]

A Journal for Damned Lovers

Days without you in them are barely days at all. Almost doomed to repeat and stagnant for I want every kiss in the morning with you and every cuddle good night. I want to be your countertop lunchtime hug and mid afternoon on my knees snack. I want you to see a ping from me, […]

Stockholm

your teeth tore at my throat as my legs wrapped around your waist gripped you tight they were covered in half-healed crescent-moons themselves amongst a backdrop of purple bruises my screams silenced became moans and whimpers lifting your snarling face to mine your eyes shone like black discs and I bit your soft lips ‘tween […]

No Impact

Engulfed in the fury of forest fire intent Insulted, you fear me; my force inspires lament Descent to the flames you wage war and char Conventional games your aim’s poor not far Reaching beseeching me to douse your mistake Bleaching decreasing thee to mouse fed to snake In the wake of your destruction; your function […]