Just Another Tool

I’m just Another tool in your tool belt Right? Pull me out when you Need me Walk away when you’re Done You bastard I don’t want to be Your useful tool Your stepping stone Your plaything Your side-fling Your feel-good Your second choice Your ego-stroke Your loyal dog I want someone Who loves me I […]

A Thousand Things I Never Say

I have a thousand things to say to you. If only you would listen. Oh, you hear my words, but you don’t listen to my heart. The meaning beneath what I say. My casual, how are you today? means that I am thinking about you. And I want the very best for you. I truly […]

Mind Separation

I’m pushed and pulled Taken advantage of Misunderstood Overwhelmed Long forgotten Minor distraction Shoved aside Second to last A piece of meat Obeyer of rules Follower of instructions Manipulated Redirected Less important Wet and heavy Always ready Concierge Want to be wanted Heart bursting Eyes dry Screams silenced Fists pounding Stuffed inside Control slipping Mind […]

Survival

the snarling dog in the corner bristles when a friendly hand reaches toward him his mangy coat and battle scars a testament of the greatest lesson learned don’t trust anyone snapping and barking even when the hand holds a strip of steak eventually the hand pulls back quits offering the dog a better life at […]

Acute Pharmacopoeia

swallowing your words razor blade shaped pills shredded my heart as they passed by my stomach distends before erupting in a burst of vomit-coated letters I keep reaching for you always the same result I must be masochistic because I keep crawling back all I want is a side-long glance a caress of my cheek […]

That Fine Line

Your feet nearly touch the thin line, waiting, then pushing a toe tentatively nearer; you sigh wistfully, pull back gently. What delight may be held, should you ultimately cross over? Would it be to your peril or your salvation? There are risks and there are rewards to that line. You know you can’t straddle it. […]

The World According to Allison

Allison is the queen of the world. No. Not the queen. She’s the star and director. We all play our parts according to Allison’s will. Oh, Allison needs more attention, oh-no! there’s trouble at work, can you help her out?! Allison needs you to do something for her, has she told you how wonderful you […]

Walk Away

I’m tired. Tired of myself. Tired of my mind. Tired of the constant swirl of voices. I’m tired of being told my way of thinking is wrong. You think I don’t know?? Oh, I know. Believe me. I spend my hours thinking, thinking, thinking. I’m remembering, tallying up all the things he said and did. […]