Collaborations

I just realized, like a couple minutes ago, that all I am is made up of collaborations. Joint efforts between me and you and you and me and me and him and her and me. Bits of you smeared into me. Cooperations and associations. Collusions and alliances. Combination of participation. Under all the layers is […]

Reflections in a Mirror

Mirror, mirror, faded glass: What’s that I see? It’s me. I’m lonely and fearful; A mouse tiny, insignificant; Overlooked, unseen, unnoticed. I’ll never be good enough… ….will I? Mirror, mirror, painted glass: What’s that I see? It’s me. I’m manipulated and worthless; A mangy dog begging for attention; Kicked, bruised, eating my own vomit. I’ll […]

A Prayer for Resurrection

sitting at my graveside looking in covered in the dark shroud shredded I gave one too many pieces and committed that final sin that final piece which stole the breath right out of my lungs so ready for you to love me begging starving empty a painted doll with no substance though I desperately craved […]

Truth or Lies

Keep quiet, he threatened And so I silenced Don’t make him angry, she warned And so I behaved Stop crying, she screamed And so I concealed Stupid bitch, she uttered And so I believed Not worth it, he spat And so I endeavored Why couldn’t you be, she urged And so I coveted Don’t make […]

Don’t Let Them

Come on, girl Don’t let them see you’re hurting Don’t let them see The pain in your eyes Smile when you’d rather cry Say you’re okay When you’d rather say you’re dying Don’t look them in the eye Be vague Can’t let them know your anguish Your broken heart Your innermost feelings Cry in the […]

A Thousand Things I Never Say

I have a thousand things to say to you. If only you would listen. Oh, you hear my words, but you don’t listen to my heart. The meaning beneath what I say. My casual, how are you today? means that I am thinking about you. And I want the very best for you. I truly […]

Mind Separation

I’m pushed and pulled Taken advantage of Misunderstood Overwhelmed Long forgotten Minor distraction Shoved aside Second to last A piece of meat Obeyer of rules Follower of instructions Manipulated Redirected Less important Wet and heavy Always ready Concierge Want to be wanted Heart bursting Eyes dry Screams silenced Fists pounding Stuffed inside Control slipping Mind […]

Furnace

my fingers dance across your skin our breathing quickens sliding through your hair my mind pulses with desire drawing you closer only fuels these flames I lick the edges of your mouth taste that intoxicating mixture of us I want to climb inside you bury myself deep, deep, deeper until the icy cold of winter […]

Inferiority Complex

this mask cracks from the inside slivers and shards prick my skin whose grey pallor hides beneath a wide smile and exuberant laugh I want, on some days, to remove it or, if I’m honest, for you to… to even WANT to, to remove it except for the inevitable sense of loss this opportunity for […]

Do You See?

pity paints her cheeks in shades of silence there’s grace in her tearful sighs and reluctant embraces she holds her head high though inside she’s falling apart do you desire to lift her hand to your lips? she’s bore the brunt of it all and for some reason continues placing one foot before the other […]