Why do I do this to myself? Why do I keep cutting open the wound? Reminding myself of all the ways I fail. That I don’t measure up. That I never will. I want so much more than I will ever have. Why torture myself? Why can’t I leave well-enough, alone? There is this untouchable […]
She was just an egg in the deep green sea, one amongst a thousand. Her soft shell was orange-pink and kept her safe for a little while. She poked a claw out one moonlit night and pushed her way free, turned and swallowed that now-dull orange casement in three bites. It was to be the […]
There was this hole in my heart. Not a bullet hole or an old stab wound. It was a hole dug in the dirt, old broken roots poking out here and there. Dead leaves and moss on the top edges, becoming darker, richer as the layers went down. I kept falling in the hole as […]
I pulled all your old love notes out of the special box I keep tucked away in the closet. I haven’t read them in… well, a really long time. Every so often I’ve pulled it, the box that is, down and held it in my lap. I could never bring myself to untie the string […]
dipping her toe first into the surface of the deep pool of black on black ink, she shed her robe stood momentarily shivering in the cool forest air, bright moonlight dappled across pale, pale skin and long tan curls before closing her tear-filled eyes spreading her arms wide, she fell forward and released her last […]
One dark and clear winter night, as I beheld the moon hanging precariously above the tree line, I stretched forth my hand and plucked it right from the sky. The first thing I noticed was that it wasn’t a sphere as we’d been told. No, it was more like a wheel of cheese. I used […]
In my mind, I see us there. Bare souls. All the special places inside you are shaped just like me. The flavors in my mouth are found only in the bright colors of your mind. Our hands are stitched together in a pocket of wool and rainbows. This glitter in my eyes is the heavens […]
We were laying on the bed facing one another. Our breathing slowing as we had just made love and it was intense and deep. We were looking into each other’s eyes and I reached over and gently stroked down the side of your face with my fingertips. Your eyes gently closed and you had such […]
Today I feel naked and vulnerable and more than ever I wish I had his arms to lie in. I need him to lift my chin and speak sense into me and tell me I can be exposed before him. Everything feels like I’m on repeat. I’m sure I’ve done this before. Felt this pit […]
When I woke up this morning, I reached over for you. You weren’t there. I sighed and reminded myself that, oh yeah, you were at work, had left a few hours ago. I drifted on the edge of sleep for a few moments before the sinking realization slowing spread like ice across my chest. Wait. […]
