Liebster Award Fun Stuff

The Liebster  is an award that is given to bloggers by other bloggers. Liebster in German means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome. I’m going to break all the rules and simply answer the questions that my wonderful nominee Laura asked. But first go check out her blog and […]

Earthquake

So I’m dogsitting/housesitting right now while my friends are on vacation. About midnight and the dogs start acting weird. I’m annoyed because I want them to be sleeping. I’m laying in bed, relaxing but not asleep yet. Ugh. Leave me alone, fucking dogs. This is why I don’t have any pets. They’re whining. Wanting on […]

Little Lies

I would rather have you for just a little while and then suffer a heartbreak than to have never experienced your love at all. ….At least, that’s what I keep telling myself.

Revisiting Contentment and Happiness

Working through my current issues of depression, I’ve been soul-searching, attempting to put a finger on what the underlying issue is. I was reading a fellow blogger’s website earlier and he mentioned getting attuned to the underlying issues and remembering that there is no “fix” but to accept what is and to embrace those failings. […]

PS: I Miss You

Remember those days and nights when we used to text each other every minute that we had? I do. When we shared every little stupid insignificant thing and it was mildly embarrassing but still I did it anyway. Telling you all the worst parts of me. I figured if you knew all the dumb stuff […]

Like Always, You

I woke up in the middle of my night and like always my first waking thoughts are of you. Always you. I lay here for long drawn out moments and like always debate sending a message to you. Always you. I know that you’re off in some far away land and like always life makes […]

Broken Beyond

Nights long past when I lay there in his arms, my soul felt complete and whole. And then he went away and I lay here alone, my heart having gone with him, I am but incomplete. Lacking. Tears soak my cheeks. My pillow. I cover my face. Shame fills me for letting him in. For […]

Worst Case Scenario

In a worst case scenario, he leaves me. Not just because he’s simply done, but because I wasn’t enough and he found someone else who meets the needs I can’t cover. The distance between us is just too great a gap to span. In a worst case scenario, he isn’t able to overcome my eccentricities […]

Constant Visions

There are times when I imagine I hear a knock on the door I open it up and there he stands. The one who holds my heart. Somehow he’s reached the same decision I have he can’t live without me he’s flown across the miles that separate us just to hold me in his arms […]

Snow and Hot Tubs

Okay, so it’s almost winter here in my part of Alaska. The snow is here, although barely enough to mention, but still. Today it’s actually pouring rain out my window, which I absolutely love. However, I am ready for full winter. Winter, with its new set of clothing, crystals of white linking hands to cover […]