Ocean Scenery

There aren’t many places in the world that make me happy more consistently than the ocean. Or, perhaps, the beach by the ocean (because let’s face it, I’m not out in the water… it’s Alaska, for Pete’s sake). It’s the smell in the air. The wide open spaces. The sounds of seagulls and eagles screeching. […]

Inferiority Complex

this mask cracks from the inside slivers and shards prick my skin whose grey pallor hides beneath a wide smile and exuberant laugh I want, on some days, to remove it or, if I’m honest, for you to… to even WANT to, to remove it except for the inevitable sense of loss this opportunity for […]

Silence Brings Calm

Keep your mouth shut, little bitch. Ain’t nothing you got to say that means nothing important. Get on your knees and scrub the floors clean, clean, ever clean. Every crack and crevice, nook and cranny need special attention. Your sharp eye and a toothbrush ought to do the trick. Today. Silence surrounds. Schk-Schk-Schk. But even […]

Walk Away

I’m tired. Tired of myself. Tired of my mind. Tired of the constant swirl of voices. I’m tired of being told my way of thinking is wrong. You think I don’t know?? Oh, I know. Believe me. I spend my hours thinking, thinking, thinking. I’m remembering, tallying up all the things he said and did. […]

Cored Soul

there was curled up in my belly something crouching, waiting I felt sick and nervous it dug its claws in a little deeper my heart leapt tried to work it’s way from my throat I swallowed thickly and probed my flesh there right there my suspicions confirmed I dropped to my knees fell forward and […]

Lessons in Pain

Pain You’ve made me who I am today I should thank you I really should From the crushing of my young soul To the tearing of my child’s body Can’t forget the burning of callous words Or the maiming of my wounded spirit Not to mention the repeated ripping out of my feathers I should […]

Chrysalis

–Ignite– Inhale sandalwood embers Smoke seeps from the corners of her eyes Drifts past her cheeks Soot trails Maps of tears Wispy withering clouds Caress then fall away Skin bright Dewdrops etched Step out trailing vapor Swirling ‘round ankles Falling free Cracked and fracture Dropping pieces Leaving behind crumbs Glass shards Finger prick Bloody sliver […]

Lightning

One wrong misstep Misplaced word Lost or perhaps unspoken Transformation from angel to… Something else electrifying Terrifying Arms spread wide Fingertips glowing Chin to chest Slowing rising Like a crucified messiah Hair spreading out lifting Energetic aggressive current Kkkkzzzapping Pops snaps Eyes widening Jaw drops Released cloudburst of energy Bright screams Blue light radiates out […]

Listen Carefully

you didn’t listen when she cried as there were bumps in the night you didn’t listen when she saw a witch in the wood you didn’t listen when she did her best in class you didn’t listen when she failed you didn’t listen to her sobbing when she didn’t make the team you didn’t listen […]

Shroud

this grey feathered mist curls around my ankles raw and damp and mucid wraps its icy fingers up my shin my rattling knees bend and collapse how many breaths taken before surrender holds my hand before the deep mist swallows me in echoes and shadows and cold shivers and haunted sighs (I wonder why I […]