Closer

I’m freaking out just a little bit but you hold me close hold me close hold me close and I’m breathing hard and not breathing at all but I hear your voice I hear your voice hear your voice tonight I won’t pull my hair out tonight it’s counting and moving objects into their perfect […]

No Escape

Who am I really? Can somebody tell me? It’s dark in here Smoke and screams Is that me? Something pierced my eyes My cheeks are wet This tongue is coated, swollen Someone stop that damn buzzing! Grasping to understand What was my name? Didn’t I have one once? It began with Wretched Why am I […]

Disintegration

my eyes scrabble in the darkness wide and darting a slick of sweat upon my brow shadows move whispers tickle the edge of my ear I can’t remember when last I spoke my throat is parched, I swallow shadows slither grey smoke twists and curly cues scratches ‘neath my eyelids what was that?! shadows creep […]

Loyalty

What happened to loyalty? We seem to have forgotten it. Ever in the pursuit of finding something better, something bigger, more likes, more follows, and wistful notoriety, we have left behind this basic principle. Even in your mistakes, missteps, hiccups or poor choices, triumphs or failures: I choose loyalty to you. tara caribou | ©2020

Winter Peace

I’ve been spending as much time as I can on my beach, letting the quiet soak into my bones and its peace cover my soul. I have a narrow road to recovery but it is these moments that I find myself able to heal, little pieces at a time. Parts of me feeling betrayed. Parts […]

Mind Separation

I’m pushed and pulled Taken advantage of Misunderstood Overwhelmed Long forgotten Minor distraction Shoved aside Second to last A piece of meat Obeyer of rules Follower of instructions Manipulated Redirected Less important Wet and heavy Always ready Concierge Want to be wanted Heart bursting Eyes dry Screams silenced Fists pounding Stuffed inside Control slipping Mind […]

Ocean Scenery

There aren’t many places in the world that make me happy more consistently than the ocean. Or, perhaps, the beach by the ocean (because let’s face it, I’m not out in the water… it’s Alaska, for Pete’s sake). It’s the smell in the air. The wide open spaces. The sounds of seagulls and eagles screeching. […]

Inferiority Complex

this mask cracks from the inside slivers and shards prick my skin whose grey pallor hides beneath a wide smile and exuberant laugh I want, on some days, to remove it or, if I’m honest, for you to… to even WANT to, to remove it except for the inevitable sense of loss this opportunity for […]

Silence Brings Calm

Keep your mouth shut, little bitch. Ain’t nothing you got to say that means nothing important. Get on your knees and scrub the floors clean, clean, ever clean. Every crack and crevice, nook and cranny need special attention. Your sharp eye and a toothbrush ought to do the trick. Today. Silence surrounds. Schk-Schk-Schk. But even […]