Sunshine in my Pocket

I carry sunshine in my pocket, the same place I keep memories of you. It’s raining here, outside, so slipping my rainbow-stained fingers within, I touch the radiating heat of you. My defenses melt away with every glimpse of your beaming heart and gentle eyes. Those same defenses that my tears had put in place. […]

Quietly, I Love You

I think I fell in love with you This should not be possible Our love cannot be Yet whenever I think of you My heart soars and squeezes My lips smile and laugh My eyes close, as I imagine If only, what could be I know, you won’t be mine to hold You told me […]

8:42am (Insomnia)

She’s lying upon her bed She wakes, trembling violently Her jaw is wired shut Her eyelids rapidly flutter There’s a pressure on her chest Breaths in spurts and shudders There is something inside her She wants to vomit It moves to leave It wants to escape It tears and claws inside her There’s violence in […]

Journal Entries

Last night I said, “I cried less today than yesterday.” And I felt like it was some small triumph. But today I go pick up his ashes and I’m not sure how to carry on. I’ve done nothing but cry today. I cried literally from the moment I woke up to the time I went […]

Papercuts

memories of you images in ink and sighs sift through the pages of my mind a soft breeze fluttering a sharp gust and I remember you your smile as you stroked my cheek the sun streaming through my hair my own smile reflected in your brown eyes turn the page and I woke to your […]

Tendrils of Love

a tiny seed landed held fast pushed down deep where it landed (which in this case was my heart) it (my heart, that is) was stone hard clay but that seed dropped from your soul onto mine that first glimpse of your face in my eyes you were so beautiful it was a tragedy from […]

Spiraling Memories – Collaboration

twin thoughts and memories slipped down like drops of rain through the branches of my mind when I opened my mouth they dripped on my outstretched tongue and I tasted you my tongue on your skin scraping off the last layers of us to swallow down the final vestiges of the warmth, now fading away, […]

Memory Beaches

my lips sigh as the water slowly slips through black grains of sand how I long to feel your caress even as the waves gently lap my feet your red lips quivered when my thumb stroked you there an intake of breath and your eyes sparkled before softly closing I remember your quiet hum of […]

Memories in Withdrawal

When they placed him in my arms, he weighed nothing at all I didn’t even know how to hold him The moment I looked into his face, I felt something burst and bloom in my heart Something I had never felt before and never have since Even today I feel the tug of his existence […]

Feedback Loop

you are my smiles and my laughter you are my good days and my growth you are my person through and through I won’t deny it yet here I am alone because I’m not for you (though you are it for me) I am alone I have cried bitter tears I have burst with happiness […]