Hollow

every time you get up and leave your scent lingering on the sheets I want one more moment one more breath one more look one more my heart walks away when you do as you casually pull your shirt over your shoulders and adjust your belt I’m dying inside I would never have enough of […]

As We Close This Year

2019 has been, well, it’s been, for me, full. This year I achieved a dream I first imagined when I was seven years old, and that was to become a published author. Technically, this happened in 2018 with my inclusion in Indie Blu(e)‘s We Will Not Be Silenced anthology. But I am more specifically referring […]

The Tree

There was this hole in my heart. Not a bullet hole or an old stab wound. It was a hole dug in the dirt, old broken roots poking out here and there. Dead leaves and moss on the top edges, becoming darker, richer as the layers went down. I kept falling in the hole as […]

I Am Origami

I pulled all your old love notes out of the special box I keep tucked away in the closet. I haven’t read them in… well, a really long time. Every so often I’ve pulled it, the box that is, down and held it in my lap. I could never bring myself to untie the string […]

Déjà Vu

Today I feel naked and vulnerable and more than ever I wish I had his arms to lie in. I need him to lift my chin and speak sense into me and tell me I can be exposed before him. Everything feels like I’m on repeat. I’m sure I’ve done this before. Felt this pit […]

So Small for a Love So Large

When I held him in my arms, he was so small. So small. I cried oh god how I cried. I asked, is there anything we can do? The doctor said, I’m sorry no, he’s just too small. I cried harder. Please, I’ll do anything, anything at all. Please. Please! Save him! Let him live, […]

Walk Away

I’m tired. Tired of myself. Tired of my mind. Tired of the constant swirl of voices. I’m tired of being told my way of thinking is wrong. You think I don’t know?? Oh, I know. Believe me. I spend my hours thinking, thinking, thinking. I’m remembering, tallying up all the things he said and did. […]

Nights Long Gone

With my face pressed to the frosted pane I stare out at the bright pinpoint stars The inky black sky a perfect backdrop Slowly they slip across my view Ever moving westward I watch them unseeing, for my eyes Observe scenes much further away To nights long gone but not forgotten Nights when you loved […]

Broken Beyond

Nights long past when I lay there in his arms, my soul felt complete and whole. And then he went away and I lay here alone, my heart having gone with him, I am but incomplete. Lacking. Tears soak my cheeks. My pillow. I cover my face. Shame fills me for letting him in. For […]

Hesperus

every indigo evening I scoop up the night sky within the palms of my dirty earth-stained hands there’s still the dark damp soil of the day’s passing beneath my nails and the dried banks of river beds from those afternoon tears still, I pick out the stars and the space dust and the sun-smudged traces […]