Broken Beyond

Nights long past when I lay there in his arms, my soul felt complete and whole. And then he went away and I lay here alone, my heart having gone with him, I am but incomplete. Lacking. Tears soak my cheeks. My pillow. I cover my face. Shame fills me for letting him in. For […]

Misery is a Mermaid

I’m all fucked in the head got love lines drawn pulled tight oh you cast your words like a net lots of tasty treats out here in the sea but I’m not the little minnow or a giant whale my hair is kelp and my feet are shells I’m just by-catch tangled and trapped pull […]

Muddy Puddle

you look in my eyes and you say, love suits you love? love suits me? ha! more like blind naivety you ask, are you pushing pushing away from us? yes, absolutely yes I am pulling away distance growing makes it less painful betrayal less available my skin is leather the rain is thundering down and […]

Filaments of Ink

sinking into deep cold indigo it presses in holds me there open my mouth to scream but it slowly pushes back a rubber balloon against my teeth chilling and tastes of tar surrounded yet noticing the shadow of a wind my hair stands on end as my ears lay flat my nose twitches straining for […]

Some Days

some days I just lay in bed in my bed I lay and cry I cry all day long I cry there are tears on my cheeks sopping pillow of tears my eyes are wet silently I cry I’m longing for a rainy day a fresh and clean day a day with you just one […]

Hatch

tiny dragon sits and waits patiently biding her time curled up within her safe shell of blue with dark uneven spots she rests not in a nest of twigs and leaves or pebbles and mud but instead upon my tongue sometimes I roll her around my mouth (gently, gently, never crushing) she is smooth and […]

Worthless Trash

you deleted me from your life so easily as if I meant absolutely nothing the softly spoken words the whispers and sighs the groanings and aching the dreams and realities erased dropped for someone better or more beautiful perhaps a clearer voice or a wider smile I can’t really say all I know is that […]

Unrelenting Ache

I miss you But the words rang hollow Because honestly What I feel is so much more than Simply missing someone It’s a hole in my chest An ache unrelenting A part of me missing My heart in tatters Air unable to penetrate the walls of my lungs Blood run cold Vision blurred by tears […]

Journal Entries

Last night I said, “I cried less today than yesterday.” And I felt like it was some small triumph. But today I go pick up his ashes and I’m not sure how to carry on. I’ve done nothing but cry today. I cried literally from the moment I woke up to the time I went […]

Expiration Date

we all have expiration dates he knew that because that’s what everyone always told him they said that when his dad died at 51 they said that when his mom got sick they said that when frank at the office fell off his chair during the quarterly meeting and died right there they said that […]