A woman holds my hand. I’ve never seen her before but she’s showing me a photograph of a handsome young couple standing in front of a blue Cadillac and now she’s started crying. She keeps asking if I remember him, in the faded photograph, but I’ve never seen him or her before. She insists she’s […]
my eyes scrabble in the darkness wide and darting a slick of sweat upon my brow shadows move whispers tickle the edge of my ear I can’t remember when last I spoke my throat is parched, I swallow shadows slither grey smoke twists and curly cues scratches ‘neath my eyelids what was that?! shadows creep […]
I’ve been spending as much time as I can on my beach, letting the quiet soak into my bones and its peace cover my soul. I have a narrow road to recovery but it is these moments that I find myself able to heal, little pieces at a time. Parts of me feeling betrayed. Parts […]
Come on, girl Don’t let them see you’re hurting Don’t let them see The pain in your eyes Smile when you’d rather cry Say you’re okay When you’d rather say you’re dying Don’t look them in the eye Be vague Can’t let them know your anguish Your broken heart Your innermost feelings Cry in the […]
When I held him in my arms, he was so small. So small. I cried oh god how I cried. I asked, is there anything we can do? The doctor said, I’m sorry no, he’s just too small. I cried harder. Please, I’ll do anything, anything at all. Please. Please! Save him! Let him live, […]
this grey feathered mist curls around my ankles raw and damp and mucid wraps its icy fingers up my shin my rattling knees bend and collapse how many breaths taken before surrender holds my hand before the deep mist swallows me in echoes and shadows and cold shivers and haunted sighs (I wonder why I […]
Last night I said, “I cried less today than yesterday.” And I felt like it was some small triumph. But today I go pick up his ashes and I’m not sure how to carry on. I’ve done nothing but cry today. I cried literally from the moment I woke up to the time I went […]
The language of small talk kills me when it has to walk with death. What do your parents do? Well. My parents were professors. My dad was a professor, but he retired, and then died. My mom was a professor, but she retired. My parents were professors, but it is no longer the same kind […]
When they placed him in my arms, he weighed nothing at all I didn’t even know how to hold him The moment I looked into his face, I felt something burst and bloom in my heart Something I had never felt before and never have since Even today I feel the tug of his existence […]
Loneliness overtakes my mind Reaching its tendrils of longing Deep inside my heart You’re right there So close And yet impossibly far away I look at you And my soul feels complete I read your words And I am bound more closely to you And yet And yet There you are My hand reaches for […]
