You’re losing her, you know? She’s slipping right through your fingers as you watch in slow motion horror. You don’t lift your hands. You don’t open your heart. You simply let her go. Do you recognize it is coming before the door closes for the final time? Do you? Yes. And even so, you let […]
Who am I really? Can somebody tell me? It’s dark in here Smoke and screams Is that me? Something pierced my eyes My cheeks are wet This tongue is coated, swollen Someone stop that damn buzzing! Grasping to understand What was my name? Didn’t I have one once? It began with Wretched Why am I […]
sitting at my graveside looking in covered in the dark shroud shredded I gave one too many pieces and committed that final sin that final piece which stole the breath right out of my lungs so ready for you to love me begging starving empty a painted doll with no substance though I desperately craved […]
laying my head upon the sand I absorb my surroundings eyes closed the salty breeze dancing over my skin gulls wheel and cry, waves caress the shore curling over, rolling under, churning then pulling away the motion rocks me to my core, soothes me, romances me opening my eyes I look up at the heavens […]
my eyes scrabble in the darkness wide and darting a slick of sweat upon my brow shadows move whispers tickle the edge of my ear I can’t remember when last I spoke my throat is parched, I swallow shadows slither grey smoke twists and curly cues scratches ‘neath my eyelids what was that?! shadows creep […]
Keep quiet, he threatened And so I silenced Don’t make him angry, she warned And so I behaved Stop crying, she screamed And so I concealed Stupid bitch, she uttered And so I believed Not worth it, he spat And so I endeavored Why couldn’t you be, she urged And so I coveted Don’t make […]
He made her feel like she could fly. Like she could do anything she put her heart to, because he believed in her. He made her soul lift and smile. He made laughter burst from her lips. He brought color to her mornings and to her evenings. In her mind, he loved her. But the […]
something bad happened tonight and also something wonderful
Why do I do this to myself? Why do I keep cutting open the wound? Reminding myself of all the ways I fail. That I don’t measure up. That I never will. I want so much more than I will ever have. Why torture myself? Why can’t I leave well-enough, alone? There is this untouchable […]
an ocean rages inside me pours out in sobs and wails crashes against my ribcage drowning my heart, my soul streams of liquid heartache flow down tears constantly falling I was whole when you were in me you walked effortlessly across my stormy peaks and troughs now I’m dry on the outside parchment skin and […]
