pity paints her cheeks in shades of silence there’s grace in her tearful sighs and reluctant embraces she holds her head high though inside she’s falling apart do you desire to lift her hand to your lips? she’s bore the brunt of it all and for some reason continues placing one foot before the other […]
Keep your mouth shut, little bitch. Ain’t nothing you got to say that means nothing important. Get on your knees and scrub the floors clean, clean, ever clean. Every crack and crevice, nook and cranny need special attention. Your sharp eye and a toothbrush ought to do the trick. Today. Silence surrounds. Schk-Schk-Schk. But even […]
my fingers slip through murky ink gravel rushes towards my face these tears will stay inside harboring all the hate and dread and sadness prone to stargaze I lift my chin looking for that one pale red star mist swirls around my shoulders letters and code drift aimlessly before my eyes stretching my hand out […]
And I’m searching for that calm space in my mind, as his hand is around my throat and he’s biting my shoulder and I can’t move and he’s fucking me, telling me it’s love and he’s the only one who truly loves me but I can’t move and my safe-word meant nothing and he tells […]
It dawned on me today that I am a writer. I have always ALWAYS viewed myself as an artist. Since I was a little kid able to actually think of myself as ‘something’, I’ve been an artist. One who is never quite happy with her art because the OCD surfaces: lines got to be formed […]
I’m tired. Tired of myself. Tired of my mind. Tired of the constant swirl of voices. I’m tired of being told my way of thinking is wrong. You think I don’t know?? Oh, I know. Believe me. I spend my hours thinking, thinking, thinking. I’m remembering, tallying up all the things he said and did. […]
Is naïveté my middle name? Did I make a fool of myself? Am I telling myself sweet lies to candy-coat reality? What’s really important? Is it me? I think not. All the old habits come back to haunt me. I beg and plead but still they come back to me. I am rotting flesh and […]
hey my lover let me hold you for a few more minutes lay here together allow the world to move on without us hold me tight kiss me tenderly wipe away my tears curled up beside you my head on your chest one arm draped across you your own wrapped around me lulled by the […]
there was curled up in my belly something crouching, waiting I felt sick and nervous it dug its claws in a little deeper my heart leapt tried to work it’s way from my throat I swallowed thickly and probed my flesh there right there my suspicions confirmed I dropped to my knees fell forward and […]
Nights long past when I lay there in his arms, my soul felt complete and whole. And then he went away and I lay here alone, my heart having gone with him, I am but incomplete. Lacking. Tears soak my cheeks. My pillow. I cover my face. Shame fills me for letting him in. For […]
