1,000 Grit

The rain is pouring down and it seems to etch deep within my soul – trickles and torrents washing out the sand and soft mud of life leaving behind only the hard bedrock of my internal reality. Will my heart ever be made whole again? Will my love be returned in kind? Will healing come […]

Beautiful Dream

Laying here thinking about you Open my eyes There you are before me Is this a dream? I never want to wake up Your eyes look straight into mine Brown in brown, earthy, perfect A slight smile Is that love I see reflected back? Your hand reaches out Pushes a lock of hair from my […]

Possessed

Violence Darkness Hard tug to the right Voices Whisper Head down on the ground Committed Controlled Say just what to say Power Ruthless All came with a price Favor Discord Push out all in mind Muttering Mumbling Trace shapes in the sand Obedience Subservience Tear out all my flesh Scared Crier Weak beyond all doubt […]

Dark Embrace

I can feel them, the icy cold hands, my inner demons. They’ve taken a hold and are pulling me down. I don’t think I can fight them this time. I’m not strong enough. Not only am I not strong enough but the old doubts have risen with them as well. What’s the point? What’s it […]

Stuck in The Depression Hole REBLOG

Blogger and PR specialist Jamila Wardak shares her very relatable thoughts on depression in her poem Stuck in the Depression Hole. I can’t get past this feeling I get stuck almost every day I’m on antidepressants but this feeling won’t go away I’ve tried deep breathing and yoga meditation and journaling too this depression continues […]

Performances

and for my next act? what would you like me to be today? perhaps I need to stay up late and recite some poetry for you? move you with my words or would you rather I put on some beats in the background and moan a little? do I turn you on? here’s my camera, […]

Fair Weather Friend

You know the one Always there when the sun shines And when you find five bucks on the sidewalk The first time you mention The creeping sadness in your heart POOF Magic disappearance act Gone How are you? they ask I’m feeling a bit depressed, you reply . . . Crickets chirp You can hear […]

Sipping Leftovers

my confidence is shaken I am weak moss covers my ankles my fingers hang down shaking from limp wrists my feet are cracked and worn worms have gorged themselves behind my eyes eyes which have no more tears my cheeks are sunken grey bowls and the rain no longer brings joy what have I become […]

Shadow Ghost

my heart is melting in my chest everything is blurry I’m constricting, constricting, reducing the pain is so large but I have become so small a tiny insignificant thing you never noticed my disappearance I’m a ghost now a shadow of former things a former me maybe I was never real to begin with tara […]