Journal Entries

Last night I said, “I cried less today than yesterday.” And I felt like it was some small triumph. But today I go pick up his ashes and I’m not sure how to carry on. I’ve done nothing but cry today. I cried literally from the moment I woke up to the time I went […]

Would That We Had Met Earlier

when last we spoke oh how I tried to play it cool your voice soothes my soul your mind a balm upon my heart your laughter my sustenance I let your words burn themselves upon the chambers of my spirit each one becoming a part of me I cling in near desperation for you how […]

Run and Hide

Run little girl run Run as fast as your feet can carry you Hide yourself away In the woods, climb a tree High, so high up In the field, ‘neath the tall grass As a tiny mouse Near the sea, amongst the boulders Small as you can be Don’t look behind you Never leave a […]

Expiration Date

we all have expiration dates he knew that because that’s what everyone always told him they said that when his dad died at 51 they said that when his mom got sick they said that when frank at the office fell off his chair during the quarterly meeting and died right there they said that […]

Memory Beaches

my lips sigh as the water slowly slips through black grains of sand how I long to feel your caress even as the waves gently lap my feet your red lips quivered when my thumb stroked you there an intake of breath and your eyes sparkled before softly closing I remember your quiet hum of […]

Senseless

She fucked him to remember She fucked him to forget She fucked him to feel beautiful She fucked him to be someone else She fucked him to drown out the pain She fucked him to feel alive Because when he was deep inside her That’s when the world made sense tara caribou | ©️2017

Defeated

Passion ignited Devotion captured Heart dismissed Doubts returned Shadows lengthened Light disappeared Darkness descended Head played Promises abandoned Trust deserted Hope wavered Affection discarded Tears cascaded Pleas ignored Mind illuminated Love defeated Lesson learned tara caribou | ©️2018

Concentrate (Voices Call)

Voices call and sometimes I answer Feel the cold blade How it beckons, longs To stretch across my skin Bright red ribbons Becoming darker, thicker Hot, wet, wonderful Freak! Freak! Freak! They shout into my greedy ear That’s not normal! But oh how lovely it is Stroke upon stroke A better brush and canvas An […]

Black Beetles

black beetles creeping down the walls eyes stare out nothing behind them except everything everything everything every thing nothing behind them at all black beetles clickety-click-cuhlicking along ash curlicues swirls and slithers through my veins dancing pearls down my veins alphabet ash moves slow out my veins my veins as roads to pure thought black […]

Promise Ring

he gave her a ring and she stares at it with all its implications its meanings its hidden agendas and its heavy weight somehow wrapped all up in thin gold and delicate gems it fit perfectly of course it did but it also comes with unspoken broken promises late nights spent crying and yelling desires […]