Bar Fly

Tonight she easily found a seat at the nearly deserted bar of the pub near her home. She sat alone listening to a background murmur of conversation from the tube and a game of darts in the corner but a few minutes alone before the bartender slid her drink over. Swiveling in her seat, two […]

Cancer

This hurts, my lover I want so much to be in your arms To have you hold me Stroke my hair Ease the torment of my disease To have you look into my eyes And for once, for even a moment The agony would relent All the pasts forgotten, forgiven My spirit freed That ache […]

Silence Brings Calm

Keep your mouth shut, little bitch. Ain’t nothing you got to say that means nothing important. Get on your knees and scrub the floors clean, clean, ever clean. Every crack and crevice, nook and cranny need special attention. Your sharp eye and a toothbrush ought to do the trick. Today. Silence surrounds. Schk-Schk-Schk. But even […]

Take It Away!

take it all away! she screamed as her fists hit the mirror over and over again the regrets and abuse and missteps and misuse the hurt and the tears and the cold accusations the voices they came from all different directions a sister, a mother, a lover, a husband she stooped and she bowed filled […]

Lessons in Pain

Pain You’ve made me who I am today I should thank you I really should From the crushing of my young soul To the tearing of my child’s body Can’t forget the burning of callous words Or the maiming of my wounded spirit Not to mention the repeated ripping out of my feathers I should […]

Muddy Puddle

you look in my eyes and you say, love suits you love? love suits me? ha! more like blind naivety you ask, are you pushing pushing away from us? yes, absolutely yes I am pulling away distance growing makes it less painful betrayal less available my skin is leather the rain is thundering down and […]

Through The Window

The first time she climbed through my bedroom window in the middle of the night I was ten and she was eight. She didn’t say anything, just clung to me beneath my purple unicorn blanket and quivered. I wrapped my arms around her and held her and cried without a word because the truth was, […]

In Denial

I love you There’s no other way to say it I miss you when you’re gone You make me incredibly happy Incredibly sad I’m not always that good with my words Most of the time I keep the important ones locked inside Sometimes I hold up the mask that says We’re just friends and that’s […]

Journal Entries

Last night I said, “I cried less today than yesterday.” And I felt like it was some small triumph. But today I go pick up his ashes and I’m not sure how to carry on. I’ve done nothing but cry today. I cried literally from the moment I woke up to the time I went […]

Would That We Had Met Earlier

when last we spoke oh how I tried to play it cool your voice soothes my soul your mind a balm upon my heart your laughter my sustenance I let your words burn themselves upon the chambers of my spirit each one becoming a part of me I cling in near desperation for you how […]