Radiance

Looking within, I see a vast darkness, twisting trails and hollows best left unseen. Vines wrap around my weakened ankles while my spine rattles in desperation. Looking at you, I see verdant green and a cool breeze rustling the branches. A breath of salty air fills my lungs. I inhale your scent deep inside. You […]

In The Dim Light

It’s in the middle of the night that I miss you most. Your body beside me. Soft and warm. When I could turn over and stroke your face, your throat, your belly. Your thigh. The dark hours becoming a tinge of grey near the edges as I whisper your name, that I love you. Gazing […]

Put The Work In

Be willing to put the hard work into yourself. Look at your own actions and thoughts with a clear mind. Forgiveness is hard work. Being honest with yourself is hard work. Stepping out of your comfort zone is hard work. Admitting You Were Wrong is hard work. Change. Growth. Relationships. Silence… it’s all hard work. […]

Dark Embrace

I can feel them, the icy cold hands, my inner demons. They’ve taken a hold and are pulling me down. I don’t think I can fight them this time. I’m not strong enough. Not only am I not strong enough but the old doubts have risen with them as well. What’s the point? What’s it […]

A Journal for Damned Lovers

Days without you in them are barely days at all. Almost doomed to repeat and stagnant for I want every kiss in the morning with you and every cuddle good night. I want to be your countertop lunchtime hug and mid afternoon on my knees snack. I want you to see a ping from me, […]

The Cycle of Life part I

The first note of awareness wasn’t a quick sharp thing. It was a greying at the edges of deep black. A slow brightening. A stretching. And then you were. There had been violence to your creation. There was all around you essence of something else. You pulled in and absorbed it. You realized now that […]

In the Last Light of the Evening

The leaves on the trees have become smudges, merely a backdrop I look right through. I see nothing. I see everything. Everything. You weren’t able to reach beyond the now into tomorrow. You stay in the past and try for today, but never tomorrow. It’s raining outside, smearing the hillside further. My blotchy pink cheeks […]

Memories in Withdrawal

When they placed him in my arms, he weighed nothing at all I didn’t even know how to hold him The moment I looked into his face, I felt something burst and bloom in my heart Something I had never felt before and never have since Even today I feel the tug of his existence […]

You Don’t Know Me!

I was having a conversation with someone who claims to “know me”…. let’s just say the score wasn’t very high. Favorites: Flower – dandelion Animal – orca Smell – lavender Drink – water with lemon Food – pumpkin Season – autumn Sounds – rain and the ocean Constellation – Orion esp the Orion Nebula Time […]

In Reality, There’s No Buried Treasure

I fell in love with a writer once. It was so easy to slide right into those words and make them mine. To pretend that sometimes they were words written just for me. They weren’t. They were about other people. I knew it. But I WANTED them to be about me. I was desperate to […]