I can feel them, the icy cold hands, my inner demons. They’ve taken a hold and are pulling me down. I don’t think I can fight them this time. I’m not strong enough. Not only am I not strong enough but the old doubts have risen with them as well. What’s the point? What’s it […]
Days without you in them are barely days at all. Almost doomed to repeat and stagnant for I want every kiss in the morning with you and every cuddle good night. I want to be your countertop lunchtime hug and mid afternoon on my knees snack. I want you to see a ping from me, […]
The first note of awareness wasn’t a quick sharp thing. It was a greying at the edges of deep black. A slow brightening. A stretching. And then you were. There had been violence to your creation. There was all around you essence of something else. You pulled in and absorbed it. You realized now that […]
The leaves on the trees have become smudges, merely a backdrop I look right through. I see nothing. I see everything. Everything. You weren’t able to reach beyond the now into tomorrow. You stay in the past and try for today, but never tomorrow. It’s raining outside, smearing the hillside further. My blotchy pink cheeks […]
When they placed him in my arms, he weighed nothing at all I didn’t even know how to hold him The moment I looked into his face, I felt something burst and bloom in my heart Something I had never felt before and never have since Even today I feel the tug of his existence […]
I was having a conversation with someone who claims to “know me”…. let’s just say the score wasn’t very high. Favorites: Flower – dandelion Animal – orca Smell – lavender Drink – water with lemon Food – pumpkin Season – autumn Sounds – rain and the ocean Constellation – Orion esp the Orion Nebula Time […]
I fell in love with a writer once. It was so easy to slide right into those words and make them mine. To pretend that sometimes they were words written just for me. They weren’t. They were about other people. I knew it. But I WANTED them to be about me. I was desperate to […]
What happened to loyalty? We seem to have forgotten it. Ever in the pursuit of finding something better, something bigger, more likes, more follows, and wistful notoriety, we have left behind this basic principle. Even in your mistakes, missteps, hiccups or poor choices, triumphs or failures: I choose loyalty to you. tara caribou | ©2020
something bad happened tonight and also something wonderful
I’ve been spending as much time as I can on my beach, letting the quiet soak into my bones and its peace cover my soul. I have a narrow road to recovery but it is these moments that I find myself able to heal, little pieces at a time. Parts of me feeling betrayed. Parts […]
