tara caribou
poetry & short story author – artist & nature lover
White Spaces
it hurts like claws digging in
the betrayal
the wickedness
vicious claws tearing, gripping
never letting go
it wasn’t just the words
it was what lay between the words
lies lies lies!
and I never saw it coming
never thought it possible
how you held my heart in the one hand
and her face in the other
callously carelessly indifferent
as long as you felt good
we meant nothing in the end
her and I
claws crushing, macerating
my heart bruised and swollen
tears unstopping
throat raw then numb
left and cold, devoid of flavor
unrepentantly empty
a shell.
how could you?
I am a woman! flawed, yes
but a woman
loving readily, deeply, intensely
needing but loyalty and respect
love in return
I remember.
I will never forget.
tara caribou | ©2022
40 Comments on “White Spaces”
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This was such a powerful heartfelt piece, Tara!
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Thank you Tom. I appreciate your comments.
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Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
Never to forget
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Thank you!
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You’re welcome
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Such a heartbreaking read, but beautiful word choice and imagery.
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Thank you Bridgette. I appreciate you stopping by.
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This must have been a difficult write, Tara. Betrayal is such a heartless (and emotionless) action, and, as you do rightly point out, its not the words but the spaces which kill.
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Indeed. It’s the spaces between that dwell.
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A sad truth. Some people don’t know what love means or takes. They just stumbles into it and trashed hearts carelessly and callously.
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You’ve got it. Not knowing a good thing when they experience it, unfortunately.
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Such a powerful poem…you’ve expressed it beautifully…would love to listen to spoken word of this piece if you one day create, Tara 💫
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Great idea, Navin. I haven’t done spoken word in a long time, since I got banned from SoundCloud. I suppose I should see what other options are out there for me.
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How did that happen? Banned by sound cloud?
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I didn’t know I was breaking one of their rules. You’d think they would say remove the content, like a warning first… nope. I get an email from them saying I was breaking their rule, they deleted my content and my account, and that I was never allowed to use their site again, for life. I honestly had no idea I was breaking a rule, or I wouldn’t have posted certain stuff on their. 🤷🏼♀️ I found out someone who shall remain unnamed (yes, I know who) turned my account in.
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Sound Cloud is for REAL?????? You will think there is an appeal process, not just a complete wipe out. This cancelling culture bullying is unbelievable. Understandably if we broke a rule, we would need to know what for learning and prevention in the future. They just expect consumers read every fine print or have a lawyer on staff? Gees….
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Yeah, I understand them giving me a warning… but no warning. Just a bummer. Especially because so many people use SC and now I am not allowed to listen to any of their stuff anymore. That’s probably the biggest thing for me. I have friends who release music on there only and now I can’t listen. 🤷🏼♀️ Oh well. Can’t change it.
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True…
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Well, you can always record & insert the audio file in your WP post…or you can create a video file with words & voice or something like that…it would be nice to listen to your voice, Tara ✨
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Yes. I’ll have to look into it, to see if the program I use to record with is compatible. Thanks for the suggestion! 😌
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It’s my pleasure, Tara 💫
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet.
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Thank you!
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Always a joy and pleasure to read and share great posts with followers, My Dear! Hope you have a great day!! 😘💕🎁🌹
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You too, my friend.
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Splendid lines
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Thanks DA
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Heart wrenching verses,Tara! Woman you are in all your write ups!
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Thanks Anita. I sure appreciate that.
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That was ripping! Good stuff.
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Thanks so much Ray.
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Highly evocative and raw, Tara. I hesitate to ask what fueled the feelings, instead, I’ll enjoy the piece for what it is. Packed with meaning.
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Thank you OD. It’s authentic and real to me… but hopefully others will be able to take something away from it as well.
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Vivid, raw and powerful Tara.
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Thank you, Andrea! 😌
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Never experienced that exact issue, but it still went right through my heart.
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That you can feel it, without experiencing it, is all I could ask for! Thanks Goldie.
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This one hit HARD because … like you I always think a woman betraying another woman whether romantically or as friends or family or in work – seems somehow less natural than if a man does it and YET women betray one another more I would say than men do (each other or women). It’s a baffling phenomenon. You described it perfectly.
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Betrayal is a tough pill to swallow because there’s quite literally nothing you can do about it. You just have to accept it and move forward, and that’s damn hard. It can obliterate your heart and soul.
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Yes – can’t say more than nod and nod at this
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