Pathetically I masquerade as
a happy woman
Smiling, listening, responding.
Just as pathetically I
wait day after day for you
For a word, perhaps three
a sign, a show, a glimmer of hope.

Realistically I appear to be
a woman unconcerned
Cold, unfeeling, aloof.
Just as realistically I
listen night after night to you
Fighting myself, denying truth I
feel everything, observe, burn.

Dramatically I pretend to be
a woman of poetry
Emotional, magical, tangible.
Just as dramatically I
write about you day and night
Weaving words, hoping you’ll read
my heart, soul, apologies.

I suppose,
in the end, I’m just
dramatically, realistically, pathetically
…. me.

©️tara caribou – 2018

13 thoughts on “Pathetic

  1. I think you managed to convey many raw emotions but not let it get away from you, which happens in intense, emotionally-charged writes. I love reading authentic feeling work and this is solid poetry! Thank you for sharing! Brian

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      1. This is only my second week using WordPress, rather than just read and clicking like, I promised myself I’d take more time to comment. I’m used to a community like AllPoetry, where commenting is encouraged and rewarded, and “likes” are an afterthought. It’s (AP) just not a good platform for larger audiences.

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        1. I see. I’m not sure I’ve looked on AP…
          personally I don’t need a ton of followers. I mean, I’d like to impact more people but I’d say I have about 30 loyal readers and another 30 on-and-off readers. I’d love 50 loyal readers.

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