Low-Down

I’m a low-down piece of shit who’s
Selfish
Prideful
Moody
Self-absorbed
Insatiable
Fucked up
Dirty
Stupid
Not worth it
At least that’s what I’ve been told
Can’t say I disagree on any one point
Still
It’s hard words to hear
Maybe, at least I feel
I should warn you about all that
Don’t mind the tears
They’re normal too
I guess my heart and my eyes
Seemingly connected
Figure if enough tears flow perhaps
Some mud and tar will wash away
Hasn’t happened yet
I think it makes me messier
Regardless
I’m obviously a worthless cunt
Little bitch
Fucking whore and so on
Probably better to just quietly back away
Around the corner
And then run, run, run


©️tara caribou – 2018

30 thoughts on “Low-Down

  1. Somewhere there’s quite possibly a New Yorker cartoon where everyone is thinking that everyone else hates them, but because everybody is worried about what other people think of them, they don’t actually form an opinion of everyone else….

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  2. Hey Tara
    That’s loads of bullshit love. You’ve just been with the wrong sort of unappreciative-of-you people maybe. Anyone who writes such lovely stuff which is so honest and love vibes can’t be a piece of shit 🙂
    Much much much love

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  3. Agree with crazy writer…don’t let a few assholes keep you from falling in love and trusting men that will treat you better…in a way worthy of your special light. Also, thanks for helping me with my lost blog. I’ve morphed yet again and this gravatar will take you to my new home, back inside WordPress where everything should working like normal again. ~ Michael

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      1. i was telling my 10 year old about you. he is the most skeptical about people he doesn’t know. he wanted to know what you looked like, how long i have known you, & how old your kids are. 🙂

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  4. I know you’ve been here before with a post like this, which is why I can’t understand why people are liking it. Do they agree with you, or disagree? I disagree, so I won’t give you a like. Are they supporting your opinion of yourself, or? I’m a bit confused.

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    1. I liked, because when someone is feeling like this…. I’d rather see them post and vent it, than keep it inside and disappear.

      I don’t agree with the opinion shared Tara, i’ve found you to be thoughtful, intelligent and caring in your blog posts and in your comments. 🙂

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  5. Tara!!!

    My heart bleeds for your pain. I’ve been in a similar place. Ended up in emergency with my stomach full of charcoal from an attempt.

    Your thoughts are valid. I am not telling you that they aren’t. Obviously they are because you are feeling them, having them.

    Please reach out to a friend or family member. Someone that loves you and maybe understands your pain and can be of comfort to you. There must be someone. Please.

    If you have no one and you feel like talking to a stranger that is just as flawed as you call me (971) 806-6002.

    I’ve suffered depression. I have talked to a few suicidal friends myself, including my own daughter. (This stuff is very hereditary.).

    Please don’t kill yourself!! The world needs more people like you. People that live with their emotions. People that deeply feel life. There is nothing wrong with you. It’s the world that is backwards. ❤️❤️❤️

    You have a place amongst all of us deviant miscreants who need and feel the pain so much more than the rest. You are NOT alone!!

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