Grief Held

The loss was so profound
So deep
So all-encompassing that it
Seemed
For a time
As if the tears would
Never
End

“Will I ever stop crying?”
I asked the world in general
In poured the platitudes
The endearments
The empty gestures
And then she spoke up from the midst
“Never. You’ll never stop crying.”
How dare she say such a thing!
That’s not
What I wanted to hear
No one else said it…
And yet
Within those unwanted words rang
TRUTH
She walked a parallel road
To my own
She must speak Truth and Experience

If then I am to cry
For my remaining days
I must
Learn
Embrace
Accept

I closed my eyes
Visualized my intense overwhelming
Grief
It was the shape of an egg
And glowed
I reached out
Plucked it from where it hovered
Before me
Before my eyes
I held it
Within the palms of my
Trembling hands
I embraced it
Cradled it
Stroked it gently
Pulled it to my chest
And there I placed it
Pushing it
Deep inside
Right next to my whimpering heart

In that moment
I made my grief
A part of me
Forever
Changed
From that breath on
No worse
Nor better
But
Different
It does not define me
But it IS a part of me

And then
I was able to take that
First
Step forward
Weak and tired
Feet dragging
But it was still
A
Step

And now
I keep going


©️tara caribou – 2017

23 thoughts on “Grief Held

  1. Wow! This is such a brilliant stream of poetic thought. And, how powerful it is to accept one’s grief with the deep understanding that while it is a part of us, it does not define us. Just wow!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love it!

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  2. Thanks for sharing this raw poem about grief brave soul. I have a poetry blog here on WordPress and my poem today is about the healing power of tears in case you have time to look? Have a sunny day, Sam 🙂

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  3. This is quite accurate; grief does not define us, but it is a part of our definition. Perhaps it is just the ink on this of our pages with the darkest lettering: the medium through which our story was recorded but not our story at all…

    Anyway, great piece. I like the ambiguously optimistic nature.

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      1. Agreed. The concept I’ve always appreciated is that of acceptance without resignation. You accept the way things are, but that doesn’t mean giving up completely on overcoming the impact on your well being. I most certainly will… Thank you.

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